September 23, 2004
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i'm sorry i'm in a poo
i have a tendency to internalise my feelings when i'm unhappy / upset / unsettled, even over the smallest things. most of the time i'm punishing myself for upseting someone i really care about. when this happens, i look like i'm ok on the outside but i'm really not. i think people who know me well will notice that i'm more withdrawn, but i can't seem to unbottle my feelings and i get even more uncomfortable if forced to talk about it
last night hobbes and miso, sensing that something was wrong, huddled close to me
it usually takes time, and tons of reassurance for me to get over things (go figure, i upset you but need you to reassure me instead. how selfish and messed up)
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i couldn't concentrate at work so i took a break, went downstairs and stood in the sun for 5 minutes. i could feel the warmth creeping into my skin and slowly taking me over. it felt so good to be in the light
feelin' much better now
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i internalize too. it's not good. try to unload some of your emotional stuff on xanga. that always helps me.
Yo kiddo, it'll al be okay soon.
Chin up, all right?
so you comin' tonight or not? nothing like a golden ticket to Alvin's Candyland.
Haha, you'll be fine. You just got to play to bigger person in YOUR relationship.
hey cheer up! I sensed it tonite when i called you and got a "dont bother me, im working!" just called cos they were playing 'push it' by salt n pepper and it remind me of u!
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