November 2, 2004

  • i was bored, so i started sorting through my IE bookmarks just now, organising, categorising, deleting old links


    i don't even remember where i got this link from, but his photographs really depressed me.  are there really that many unhappy people out there in the world?  his photos seem so foreign and far away from where i'm sitting.  am i really that naiive and idealistic?  look at the trailer park and alder hotel albums.  his subjects at the alder hotel seem resigned to misery (weary eyes, side-long glances into the camera) while the trailer park ones look defiant (lips clamped shut, chin jutting out).  "yeah so what? i am trailer trash.  i am a 40 year old whore.  i am a drug addict.  i am old, alone and i depend on social security.  what do you say to that?"


    (reading ifso's posts always puts me into these pensive moods)


    i just hope that i'll never look at a sunset like this and not be able to appreciate it



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    here's another old-ish track for you


    | Download of the day: Portishead - Sour times |

October 25, 2004

  • retro


    check out the headlights i found on this car (spotted in KL, M'sia).


    living in HK you don't really see beat up cars roaming the streets anymore, so it was a real treat to see this mini zipping in and out of traffic.  the driver, you may be interested to note, was a ragged looking middle aged man wearing a wife beater. 



    click here to see Audrey's wedding fotos


    | Download of the day: Suzanne Vega - Caramel |

October 14, 2004

September 27, 2004

  • bullets bullets bullets


    • so apparently people do read my blog without telling me.  how else do you explain the 40+ new views on my page every day?
    • you lurkers had better start commenting if you know what's good for you ;)
    • anyway
    • i love bullet points.  let's talk in bullets today 
    • have you ever been in extremely stressful situations?
    • like today, i was working straight for 6 hours - didnt stop to drink blink talk nothing.... my butt, glued to the chair, fingers flying over the keyboard, punching numbers into the calculator, clicking in and out of charts 
    • having to work as 3 senior guys hover around your desk breathing down your neck is no fun
    • we finally sent the monster out at 320pm  right on the deadline. the bosses reconvened to the conference room to get their presentation strategies down and i was suddenly left ... alone
    • hmm.  what to do
    • so i wolfed down my sandwich (still stressed), pressed F9 to see if i got any personal emails (nope), started into space for a little bit and all of a sudden the stress disappeared
    • i came out of my vacum
    • like how it feels to take off your headphones after listening to 3 hours of techno
    • and you're once again aware of other people typing on their keyboards, the low murmer in the office, the computers humming....
    • there was a really good movie that had a scene descibing exactly the same thing... let me know if you know what i'm talking about 
    • *sigh* i'm going to find some low brain power activity to occupy myself with now
    • katherine and i need hotel reservations in HCM
    • we're going in 2 days with no plans.  in fact i don't even think we've bought our tix
    • you lurkers, drop some sound bytes!
    •  i miss my boyfriend

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    random shot of Sheung Wan at night



    restless; let's up the speed hmm?


    turn it up


    | Download of the day: Uk Apache & Shy FX - Original Nuttah |

September 23, 2004

  • i'm sorry i'm in a poo


    i have a tendency to internalise my feelings when i'm unhappy / upset / unsettled, even over the smallest things.  most of the time i'm punishing myself for upseting someone i really care about.  when this happens, i look like i'm ok on the outside but i'm really not.  i think people who know me well will notice that i'm more withdrawn, but i can't seem to unbottle my feelings and i get even more uncomfortable if forced to talk about it


    last night hobbes and miso, sensing that something was wrong, huddled close to me


    it usually takes time, and tons of reassurance for me to get over things (go figure, i upset you but need you to reassure me instead.  how selfish and messed up) 


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    i couldn't concentrate at work so i took a break, went downstairs and stood in the sun for 5 minutes.  i could feel the warmth creeping into my skin and slowly taking me over.  it felt so good to be in the light   feelin' much better now

September 19, 2004

  • New additions


    meet Hobbes........................... and Miso



    we like to fight and keep stella up all night



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    i can just tell i'm going to spoil my kids rotten.  ain't v good at this whole discipline thing at all


    | Download of the day: Nelly Furtado - Powerless |

September 15, 2004

September 7, 2004


  • 40 Things You May Not Know


    (original list is too long so you're reading a slightly edited version)


    1. Money isn't made out of paper; it's made out of cotton.


    2. The 57 on Heinz ketchup bottle represents the varieties of pickle the company once had.


    3. Your stomach produces a new layer of mucus every two weeks - otherwise it will digest itself (eewwww).


    4 The Declaration of Independence was written on hemp paper.


    5. The dot over the letter 'i' is called a "tittle".


    6. A raisin dropped in a glass of fresh champagne will bounce up and down continuously from the bottom of the glass to the top.


    8. A duck's quack doesn't echo ... no one knows why.


    10. Every person has a unique tongue print (no licking at the scene of a crime!).


    12. The 'spot' on 7UP comes from its inventor who had red eyes. He was albino.


    14. During the chariot scene in 'Ben Hur' a small red car can be seen in the distance.


    15. Warren Beatty and Shirley MacLaine are brother and sister.


    16. Chocolate affects a dog's heart and nervous system; a few ounces will kill a small sized dog.


    17. Orcas (killer whales) kill sharks by torpedoing up into the shark's stomach from underneath, causing the shark to explode.


    18. Most lipstick contains fish scales (eeww).


    23. Because metal was scarce, the Oscars given out during World War II were made of wood.


    25. The name Wendy was made up for the book Peter Pan; there was never a recorded Wendy before.


    26. There are no words in the dictionary that rhyme with: month, orange, purple, and silver.


    28. A tiny amount of liquor on a scorpion will make it instantly go mad and sting itself to death.


    31. By raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you can't sink in quicksand (and you thought this list was completely useless).


    32. The phrase "rule of thumb" is derived from an old English law, which stated that you couldn't beat your wife with anything wider than your thumb (sign of a true civilized society ... not!).


    33. American Airlines saved $40,000 in '87 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first class.


    34. The first product Motorola developed was a record player for automobiles. At that time, the most known player on the market was the Victrola, so they called themselves Motorola.


    36. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.


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    I need tips on feeding my cat medicine.  Hobbes's got flu and like the stubborn kitten he is, he's spitting out the pills one by one.  i've tried crushing the pills and mixing them with tuna but he's too smart for that too. i spend up to an hour every day trying to coax him to take his medicine. argh. it's frustrating


    | Download of the day: Anastacia - Sick and tired |

September 1, 2004

  • slipping back into ...


    ... old routines


    monday i left work at 1115pm.  by 4pm i was already very irritated (ask peter) knowing that dinner's going to be takeaway


    tuesday i stayed till 1145pm.  cheerfully ordered dinner and was happy i didn't have to stay past midnight


    last night, 0050am..... worked straight through, and by the time i glanced at the clock it was 11pm already.  _and_ it didnt even feel that late.  how pathetic.  caught MG's eye and we grinned wryly at each other.  how'd we manage to get stuck working on super urgent deliverables again?


    it's been a while since i had to pull such long hours so i was quite surprised at how easily it was to adjust to working late into the night again. it's all about expectations really. no expectations = won't get disappointed  


    aside from cussing a lot more liberally, i'm actually feeling more alert than usual.  ha!  maybe i haven't aged that much afterall!


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    yes i did grow up in the 80's


    | Download of the day: Salt 'n' Pepa - push it |

August 30, 2004

  • rant


    1) i'm not wearing any makeup today.  zilch.  and i've been gleefully rubbing my eyes the whole day.  it feels so liberating.  guys won't understand this but it sucks when your eyes itch and you can't rub them for fear of smudging your makeup 


    2) you know how sometimes you really really look forward to something happening and all that anticipation builds up, but just before it actually happens you get chicken feet?  you hesitate and start questioning if it is the best thing after all and whether you're making the right move?  it ALWAYS happen to me and it sucks.  ruins any kind of pleasure / excitment one could've derived from the whole thing


    3) parents never mean what they say, especially when it comes to spending less time with them.  "it's raining really hard outside... you don't have to come home, it's ok"  yeah right.  the second i walked in the door my mother broke into a huge grin.  not that i mind - i love going home (really) but still... is all this civility necessary?


    4) pigs rock and anne's the best.  period



    5) I WANT TO GO TO LONDON SOMEBODY FIND ME A TICKET!


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    Beatles songs are good for rainy days:


    | Download of the day: Beatles - In my life |